Due Date

I am 40 weeks today. My baby was due to say hello on this day, the 20th November, alas he wants to arrive fashionably late, like his mother Grrr.

I am becoming a nervous wreck not knowing when he is going to arrive, especially since it appeared to everyone he was going to come early [His head has been engaged from 31 weeks, ow].

The tenuous sporadic early labour signs throw me into a belief he is coming that day/night I am finding it hard to ignore my body as I keep analysing it.

Also as the day gets closer I have had a few hormonal doubting moments, sort of like muted prolonged panic attacks, wondering if I have made the right choice, etc.

The thing that makes the wait more annoying, I am mindful that these worries and aliments will dissipate on his arrival, but thats then I am here, now. Painful, bored, anxious, now...

As easy as 123... :/

I have one hundred and twenty-three days left until our child is due, and I still am yet to see how it is possible for a person to come out through my most sensitive and small lady regions.

ARGH!

Weekend woman's hour/'mantenatal'

Just thought I would share this Radio4 segment regarding men, mantenatal classes and labour.

I have always thought that childbirth and its options should be discussed equally between man and woman, and where possible the man should support the woman (should she want him to) during the labour. But this segment offers some food for thought for the counter argument. Things I have never really considered before.

I know when the big day comes I am going to feel terribly vulnerable, I assumed my partner being there would make it better, not worse. Upon hearing the potential negatives of him being there, I think we will have to discuss it a bit more probably with the midwife. I do want my Richard along side me, I am concerned about the repercussions of what may happen... May his presence make me more prone to worry or become upset? Will he still be able to see me in the same way afterwards? Will I become worried about my interactions/appearance and begin to panic? Would I be calmer without him and with another female? And then there is the poo problem! Ack! - I suppose this is the argument to have a Doula, but i'm not really into all that hippy stuff!

Eak.